Having a bit of a rough night tonight. My brother had his girlfriend over all day today and she kept talking about Valentine's Day, and it got my mind going on overload. Being far away from my hubby is tough, especially when this time of year comes around. And when I'm on my period too. Unfortunately, it's my kind of night. Been a crying wreck today and I hate it. But, I know that it will be worth it in a few months. He certainly has a way of making me smile even when I'm upset. I guess I get jealous of all the other people who have their person. I have the love of my life, yet I can't have him in my arms on the one day of the year the candy companies want me to be.
Wow. How pathetic do I sound right now?
Sorry.
Really.
I'm so incredibly lucky to have the most amazing man in the world and I get to talk to him every single day. Best part of my day, actually(: So, I will be fine. Just wanted to say that little bit. We will mske Valentines Day amazing this year, just gotta come up with a plan. (:
I love you so much baby, happy almost Valentine's Day and TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY! <3 Best two years of my life<3
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Never Gonna Give You Up
A dear friend of ours texted me last night. Her husband just deployed this past week, and she was getting worried. I felt helpless in my efforts to calm her fears. Because as confident as I was that he was totally fine, I couldn't promise her that. I know a lot of wives of soldiers have a lot of the same fears. I have had similar trials, but, not with my husband. With my daddy. My whole childhood growing up, I always knew the military. That's how my parents met. My mom had just gotten her wisdom teeth removed and my daddy came to see her..noticing similarities, eh? I didn't pick up on this at all until a couple days ago when my mom was telling me about it.
As a little girl, I wished on stars. I still do. And every night, I would go to my window and look up at the sky. Even if there were clouds, I knew that they were all up there somewhere, so I wished anyway. It used to be for a new dolly, or a puppy, and as I got a little older and more aware, I always used to miss my dad. He and my mom split up when I was 5 or so. He was still in the military, and as I came to realize later on in life, he submerged himself into work to fight the depression he had been struggling with for so long. He was often deployed, and every night, I wished for my daddy to come home. He was only able to call a couple times a month, and when he wasn't deployed he was always "in the field." I had no idea what the 'field' was, all I knew was that I hated it because it kept him from me. After every deployment, before he ever dropped off his bags or went to see his parents, he came to my two brother and I. Jumped from one flight to the next. I didn't realize what it meant, all I knew was that I got to hug my daddy and that he was in his uniform that I thought he looked so tall in.
It wasn't until his retirement ceremony that It hit me, everything that he had done. All the places he had been, all the people he met, the things he did for all of us. There was a year of my life I had nightmares every single night of my daddy getting killed by 'the bad man' I had seen on T.V. right after 9/11.
When I first met Jacob, he was days away from swearing into the Army. He went through MEPS and was told he was not able to join. I was so proud of him anyway, even thought the disappointment was more for him than he ever let onto me. I guess I always tried to stay away from the military because I resented it for keeping my dad from me, which is a silly reason. As we ll as fear, I guess. But now I'm revisiting the idea again and I'm not afraid. I just don't want to be gone away from my love. That is my biggest hang up with it.
But, if I am able to get in, Jacob and I will get married before I ever leave for basic and he will hold down the fort for me while I'm gone, and be taken care of in every way possible. Which is very important to me.
None of us know what the future will hold, because the course of life can change in an instant. But what I do know, is that I will be a teacher, and I am marrying Jacob. We will live wherever we are led to, but I would love to live in his town, teach in the schools he went to, and that our children will go to, and just engrain myself in his world and never leave. I am a traveler at heart, but now it's not just me. It's Jacob and I as a team. I want to share my love of new places with Jacob and eventually with our children.
I wasn't able to make myself feel better with soothing Kathy's fears, but I was reminded that I am incredibly blessed to have gone through what I have as far as the military child goes. I understood her fears. And it makes me want to hold Jacob a bit tighter knowing he wants to go into a dangerous career field. But no matter what, I will have him in my arms for as many nights as I can and I will have this incredible man as my husband until the world stops. So I'll just take this day by day and be grateful for everything I have and everyone I love and hold them all a bit closer to my heart.
I love you<3
What can I say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love.
As a little girl, I wished on stars. I still do. And every night, I would go to my window and look up at the sky. Even if there were clouds, I knew that they were all up there somewhere, so I wished anyway. It used to be for a new dolly, or a puppy, and as I got a little older and more aware, I always used to miss my dad. He and my mom split up when I was 5 or so. He was still in the military, and as I came to realize later on in life, he submerged himself into work to fight the depression he had been struggling with for so long. He was often deployed, and every night, I wished for my daddy to come home. He was only able to call a couple times a month, and when he wasn't deployed he was always "in the field." I had no idea what the 'field' was, all I knew was that I hated it because it kept him from me. After every deployment, before he ever dropped off his bags or went to see his parents, he came to my two brother and I. Jumped from one flight to the next. I didn't realize what it meant, all I knew was that I got to hug my daddy and that he was in his uniform that I thought he looked so tall in.
It wasn't until his retirement ceremony that It hit me, everything that he had done. All the places he had been, all the people he met, the things he did for all of us. There was a year of my life I had nightmares every single night of my daddy getting killed by 'the bad man' I had seen on T.V. right after 9/11.
When I first met Jacob, he was days away from swearing into the Army. He went through MEPS and was told he was not able to join. I was so proud of him anyway, even thought the disappointment was more for him than he ever let onto me. I guess I always tried to stay away from the military because I resented it for keeping my dad from me, which is a silly reason. As we ll as fear, I guess. But now I'm revisiting the idea again and I'm not afraid. I just don't want to be gone away from my love. That is my biggest hang up with it.
But, if I am able to get in, Jacob and I will get married before I ever leave for basic and he will hold down the fort for me while I'm gone, and be taken care of in every way possible. Which is very important to me.
None of us know what the future will hold, because the course of life can change in an instant. But what I do know, is that I will be a teacher, and I am marrying Jacob. We will live wherever we are led to, but I would love to live in his town, teach in the schools he went to, and that our children will go to, and just engrain myself in his world and never leave. I am a traveler at heart, but now it's not just me. It's Jacob and I as a team. I want to share my love of new places with Jacob and eventually with our children.
I wasn't able to make myself feel better with soothing Kathy's fears, but I was reminded that I am incredibly blessed to have gone through what I have as far as the military child goes. I understood her fears. And it makes me want to hold Jacob a bit tighter knowing he wants to go into a dangerous career field. But no matter what, I will have him in my arms for as many nights as I can and I will have this incredible man as my husband until the world stops. So I'll just take this day by day and be grateful for everything I have and everyone I love and hold them all a bit closer to my heart.
I love you<3
What can I say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
A Drop In The Ocean
I happen to love this song by Ron Pope. Actually, I love a lot of songs. Jacob and I tend to be surprised when we realize how many songs we have that apply to our relationship! (: Well, at least we will have an amazing wedding playlist! I recommend songs for him to listen to all the time, although, I think between the two of, we tend to forget to go back and look! So, as a nice little side trip for y'all, I will do my best to put up our playlist on here. If I forget some, The Loving Male will certainly fill in my blanks!
Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not
You and Me
I Run To You
I Just Call You Mine
When You Say Nothing At All
She's Everything
Waitin' On A Woman
.Old Alabama
.Little Moments
.He Didn't Have To Be
Barefoot Blue Jean Night
A Thousand Years pt. 2
Wonderful Tonight
Marry Me
Ours
Mine
Safe and Sound
Woman Like You
I'll Wait For You
Don't Take The Girl
I Need You
Good Directions
Crazy Girl
Honeybee
God Gave Me You
Who Are You When I'm Not Looking
Kissed You Goodnight
If I Didn't Have You
All Your Life
Everything I Do, I Do It For You
Certainly not all the songs by any stretch of the imagination, but I hope y'all enjoy these!
Baby, I love you <3
What can I say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love<3
Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not
You and Me
I Run To You
I Just Call You Mine
When You Say Nothing At All
She's Everything
Waitin' On A Woman
.Old Alabama
.Little Moments
.He Didn't Have To Be
Barefoot Blue Jean Night
A Thousand Years pt. 2
Wonderful Tonight
Marry Me
Ours
Mine
Safe and Sound
Woman Like You
I'll Wait For You
Don't Take The Girl
I Need You
Good Directions
Crazy Girl
Honeybee
God Gave Me You
Who Are You When I'm Not Looking
Kissed You Goodnight
If I Didn't Have You
All Your Life
Everything I Do, I Do It For You
Certainly not all the songs by any stretch of the imagination, but I hope y'all enjoy these!
Baby, I love you <3
What can I say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love<3
Sunday, January 6, 2013
I Would Walk Five Thousand Miles For You
So, as most of you know, we are battling one of the toughest challenges a couple and relationship could go through: Long Distance.
It sucks.
Like, a lot.
But, it has taught us some important stuff!
For example, according to many relationship and marriage experts, communication is the key to a long happy relationship. Well, we have had PLENTY of time to brush up on our communication skills. In fact, we have it down to a science. We are quite good at it in fact.
Another key note is Trust. Yup. We are Roughly 3000 miles away from each other. So trust is a big thing. He has never given me a reason to not trust him. Ever. Most of the time he is really good about checking in when he gets home so I know hes not laying dead in a ditch somewhere. We are very open and honest with each other. If something bothers me, he's usually really really good at picking up on it, especially if it's something he did that bothered me, and we talk about it! Other times it's the other way around. Sometimes we argue, fight, but it doesn't change a single thing(: We just find something funny that cracks us both up and we are right on track again. That's what happens when you have a strong relationship, fights don't ruin it, nothing does. If anything, the arguments make you stronger because you can't always agree!
I miss him more than he could ever imagine. But, 2012 was a banner year for us! I got to go back home to Alabama to celebrate his father getting married on the beach of Gulf Shores, 5 amazing days with my man. The wedding was absolutely beautiful, and he was so incredibly handsome standing next to his dad. It gave me an image of what he will look like when we get married in a couple of years(:
Anddddd, he got to come out to Tacoma for Thanksgiving! Hands down the best Thanksgiving of my life. We had a bit of a time finding each other in the airport! He saw me before I saw him, but when I did, I didn't care that we were surrounded by hundreds of people, I jumped into his arms and gave him a big ol' kiss in front of God and everybody! Yup! Great movie moment right there, and I loved every second of it(:
I will be back home to Alabama sometime in Spring/Summer, just in time to welcome our brother -not blood- home from his forever long deployment in Afghanistan, and and for Jacob's big 21!! Can't wait to get his party together!! He is one lucky man, he will get a party every year because, I LOVE birthdays. ESPECIALLY for my Hubby, cause without him, I don't know what I would do!! He deserves it<3
It's really hard for me to not walk out the door and pull a Forrest Gump and just run. Run all 2, 700 something miles to his front door and never leave. But, alas, grown ups have grown up responsibilities and so I have to my Jimminy Cricket duct taped up and thrown in the back of my irresponsibility drawer and shut it.
I love you sweetheart.
What can I say? We fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love.
It sucks.
Like, a lot.
But, it has taught us some important stuff!
For example, according to many relationship and marriage experts, communication is the key to a long happy relationship. Well, we have had PLENTY of time to brush up on our communication skills. In fact, we have it down to a science. We are quite good at it in fact.
Another key note is Trust. Yup. We are Roughly 3000 miles away from each other. So trust is a big thing. He has never given me a reason to not trust him. Ever. Most of the time he is really good about checking in when he gets home so I know hes not laying dead in a ditch somewhere. We are very open and honest with each other. If something bothers me, he's usually really really good at picking up on it, especially if it's something he did that bothered me, and we talk about it! Other times it's the other way around. Sometimes we argue, fight, but it doesn't change a single thing(: We just find something funny that cracks us both up and we are right on track again. That's what happens when you have a strong relationship, fights don't ruin it, nothing does. If anything, the arguments make you stronger because you can't always agree!
I miss him more than he could ever imagine. But, 2012 was a banner year for us! I got to go back home to Alabama to celebrate his father getting married on the beach of Gulf Shores, 5 amazing days with my man. The wedding was absolutely beautiful, and he was so incredibly handsome standing next to his dad. It gave me an image of what he will look like when we get married in a couple of years(:
Anddddd, he got to come out to Tacoma for Thanksgiving! Hands down the best Thanksgiving of my life. We had a bit of a time finding each other in the airport! He saw me before I saw him, but when I did, I didn't care that we were surrounded by hundreds of people, I jumped into his arms and gave him a big ol' kiss in front of God and everybody! Yup! Great movie moment right there, and I loved every second of it(:
I will be back home to Alabama sometime in Spring/Summer, just in time to welcome our brother -not blood- home from his forever long deployment in Afghanistan, and and for Jacob's big 21!! Can't wait to get his party together!! He is one lucky man, he will get a party every year because, I LOVE birthdays. ESPECIALLY for my Hubby, cause without him, I don't know what I would do!! He deserves it<3
It's really hard for me to not walk out the door and pull a Forrest Gump and just run. Run all 2, 700 something miles to his front door and never leave. But, alas, grown ups have grown up responsibilities and so I have to my Jimminy Cricket duct taped up and thrown in the back of my irresponsibility drawer and shut it.
I love you sweetheart.
What can I say? We fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Little Things
Sometimes, it's the really the little things that count the most. Jacob is notorious for doing the little things that mean the most to me. For example, if I'm having a particularly horrible day because of work, or other things going on in my life, he has a way of slipping in a sweet word or a happy thought that seems to take my mind off of whatever it was that was bothering me. (: He doesn't know it, but I live for little moments like that. Sometimes it takes a little persuasion to get him to turn to his softer side, but I love every second I get it. He really is the kind of guy every girl desreves. You simply cannot go into a relationship and expect to change everything the person is to your vision of who he should be in your eyes. If so, then what reason did you ever have to enter into the relationship to begin with? You should fall in love with someone who has flaws, who isnt the perfect fairy tale prince that Disney gives to the girls. Look at him like your own Prince. The kind of Prince who doesn't want to hide you away from the rest of the world, who would rather show you off to his friends, and amazingly, his friends become some of your closest. One who plans a future with you, who makes silly noises juat to make you laugh,who can pick up the thread of a conversation and run a completely different direction with it and turn it into the best conversation of your life. Jacob has his own special way about him, one that I cherish more than anything else in this world. He and I can go absolutely anywhere and turn it into a spontanious date, especially just a run down to Walmart to get a pizza Lunchable, just because I mentioned I wanted it.When we first started dating, he drove 45 minutes just to pick me up and go to Walmart and we ended up like two little kids in a candy store. Running up and down aisles, looking at all the movies and video games and picking which ones we would put in an ultimate movie collection, pushing all the buttons in the toy aisle and running away whem it actually worked, picking out Lunchables so I wouldn't starve at work, and he got me a Pillow Pet. We got back to my house and I knew he wanted to kiss me..and I was trying to play it off like I didnt know! I was so nervous because of all the feelings I had for him and we had been together for a month already and I hadn't kissed him yet!!
Ladies, if a man is willing to wait A WHOLE MONTH to kiss you because you just weren't ready, marry him <3
It was the most perfect kiss that ever existed. And that's all I will say.
It's the little things he does that mean the most. I don't need diamonds or huge trips to Paris -There's an idea!- I just need him. Being exactly who he is. I'm so proud of the man he is right this second, and who he will grow to be tomorrow.
So ladies, just let him do the little things in his own way. Let him be romantic in his own way, and most importantly, love him for exactly who he is, flaws and all. Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither is love. It takes hard work, trust, laughter and tears. It takes strength to handle all the bad and knowing pure joy to appreciate the good. He is my Happily Ever After. No matter what hardships and storms we face together, it can't rain forever. Eventually the sun comes out and our little corner of the world is at peace once again(: Isn't it lucky?
What can I say? We are two people in mutual weirdness and we call it love
Ladies, if a man is willing to wait A WHOLE MONTH to kiss you because you just weren't ready, marry him <3
It was the most perfect kiss that ever existed. And that's all I will say.
It's the little things he does that mean the most. I don't need diamonds or huge trips to Paris -There's an idea!- I just need him. Being exactly who he is. I'm so proud of the man he is right this second, and who he will grow to be tomorrow.
So ladies, just let him do the little things in his own way. Let him be romantic in his own way, and most importantly, love him for exactly who he is, flaws and all. Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither is love. It takes hard work, trust, laughter and tears. It takes strength to handle all the bad and knowing pure joy to appreciate the good. He is my Happily Ever After. No matter what hardships and storms we face together, it can't rain forever. Eventually the sun comes out and our little corner of the world is at peace once again(: Isn't it lucky?
What can I say? We are two people in mutual weirdness and we call it love
Monday, December 31, 2012
From The Loving Male
So the first two posts revealed a response to have me write a little submission to the blog, so people could hear my point of view of our relationship. And I have to say that I am excited to be writing this, more of the fact that the HWIC(Head Woman In Charge)* is allowing me uncensored access to the stuff I write, so here we go(:
Lets start with a little about myself. I work at a small plant known in our town as Hercules Poly, but I am looking into the Police Academy for a career. I operate a machine that produces, wait for it......bags. No, not paper bags, plastic bags. Like Wal-Mart shopping bags, ice bags, evidence bags, you name it. In short, hard work, long hours, crap pay. But it is a stable job for now. In my private life I run an airsoft MILSIM(Military Simulation) team called VICTOR 9**. I am an Operator on the team, my number V9-J5, I also manage the paperwork and training/tryout scheduling. I also am a firearm instructor on F&W Strategics***, where I teach firearm safety and handling with simulation rifles. I am a avid video gamer, and I have just started collecting the HALO Megabloks sets. Now lets move onto the meat and butter of this post.
The relationship that I have with the HWIC is a very wonderful experience that I am so thankful to have in my life. I absolutely love this lady, and I would do anything for her. I remember when I first met her, I was nervous as hell, yet I somehow got the courage to (all single men take notes): ask her father for permission to date his daughter. It was the most nerve-racking experience of my life...But it paved way for a very wonderful relationship with this lady. And I look forward to having a wonderful future with her, hell we lived through the apocalypse together. We can last through anything.
Plus is also rocks to have a fiancee who likes to feed my video game addiction. She just bought me the new Xbox 360 model, so I am very happy. Oh, HWIC you spoil me so(: This is a mutual weirdness we call love.
I love you guys, I will post some information here for those who are interested in what I do
VICTOR 9 MILSIM
Facebook: www.facebook.com/victor9airsoft
Webpage: victor9milsim.webs.com
F&W Strategics
Facebook: www.facebook.com/FW.Strategics
Webpage: victor9milsim.webs.com Just click on the F&W Strategics tab at the top.
Thanks guys, you are awesome.
-J5
Lets start with a little about myself. I work at a small plant known in our town as Hercules Poly, but I am looking into the Police Academy for a career. I operate a machine that produces, wait for it......bags. No, not paper bags, plastic bags. Like Wal-Mart shopping bags, ice bags, evidence bags, you name it. In short, hard work, long hours, crap pay. But it is a stable job for now. In my private life I run an airsoft MILSIM(Military Simulation) team called VICTOR 9**. I am an Operator on the team, my number V9-J5, I also manage the paperwork and training/tryout scheduling. I also am a firearm instructor on F&W Strategics***, where I teach firearm safety and handling with simulation rifles. I am a avid video gamer, and I have just started collecting the HALO Megabloks sets. Now lets move onto the meat and butter of this post.
The relationship that I have with the HWIC is a very wonderful experience that I am so thankful to have in my life. I absolutely love this lady, and I would do anything for her. I remember when I first met her, I was nervous as hell, yet I somehow got the courage to (all single men take notes): ask her father for permission to date his daughter. It was the most nerve-racking experience of my life...But it paved way for a very wonderful relationship with this lady. And I look forward to having a wonderful future with her, hell we lived through the apocalypse together. We can last through anything.
Plus is also rocks to have a fiancee who likes to feed my video game addiction. She just bought me the new Xbox 360 model, so I am very happy. Oh, HWIC you spoil me so(: This is a mutual weirdness we call love.
I love you guys, I will post some information here for those who are interested in what I do
VICTOR 9 MILSIM
Facebook: www.facebook.com/victor9airsoft
Webpage: victor9milsim.webs.com
F&W Strategics
Facebook: www.facebook.com/FW.Strategics
Webpage: victor9milsim.webs.com Just click on the F&W Strategics tab at the top.
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This is what I do guys ^^ |
Thanks guys, you are awesome.
-J5
Chapter 1: "So..What's Your Favorite Movie?"
Jacob- Enjoys: Paige
Being a professional MILSIM Airsoft Hobbiest and Firearm Extrordinare
Any Military inspired video game, or all of them, in that case!
Having a very broad and very tasteful music collection that Paige is rather fond of
*Exception- Cancer Jesus (I)
Helping out anyone in need
Watching movies and documentaries
Putting in a hard day's work
The beach
Teasing Paige about just about anything and everything
Hot Wings
Mustard instead of Ketchup
Soda instead of coffee
Neopolitan Ice Cream
Any side of the bed or couch Paige will let him have
C.J. and Beastie
The color blue
Being tactical
Finding new ways to make Paige laugh
His family
Roll Tide
Paige-Enjoys: Jacob
Singing
Being a nerd about anything
Finding new music to add to her poor overused Ipod music collection
Starbucks
Helping people who need it
Playing Skyrim with Jacob and providing hilarious commentary
Watching movies
Working hard
The beach
Taking Jacob's teasing like a man and hitting him hard with witty comebacks
Hot Wings and Mexican Food
Mustard instead of Ketchup
Coffee!
Peach, Strawberry, and Butter Pecan Ice Cream
C.J. and Beastie
The color blue
Camo and Bass Pro Shops
The stars
Finding new ways to make Jacob laugh amd secretly storing more comebacks
Virgina Tech Hokies
My family
"So..What's your favorite movie?" Was one of the first things I remember asking Jacob. And lordy was I relieved when I realized we had very similar but different tastes as far as movies, music, and T.V.
I first saw Jacob at a Marching Band event -yes, we are band nerds- and he pissed me straight off. He just kept talking and laughing with our friend Joey. But remember, I had no idea who they were at the time. It was dead quiet except for them and I desperately just wanted them to be quiet. So, I turned around and glared at Jacob, who glanced my way with a smirk to no one in particular and just kept right on talking. What a spark, right? Ha! So hit and miss over the next couple years I saw him at events, though never putting two and two together. He found me on Facebook through one of our very best friends Kathy Ann, and at first I thought he was insane to try and message me, but I couldnt help myself and I replied. "So..what's your favorite movie?" was asked and the rest is history. He challenges me in ways that I didnt know I needed to be challenged in, he has a heart of gold most of the time, and I truly don't know how my world would keep spinning without him. Not to sound cheesy, but, he truly completes me, amd that is no easy feat because, I am not an easy person. But he loves me anyway and that's all I could ever ask. He brings out my goofy side even more than it already is and we NEVER get bored. Whether its discussing our wedding plans, what he would do if I was a zombie in our basement, our future children and what they will look like, finances, the difficult stuff all couples go through, to what we would do if we could make the coolest haunted house ever on Halloween, and anything else that comes to our pretty little heads, it's never a dull moment! Oh, yeah, did I mention that we are three thousand miles away from each other? Which brings us to Chapter 2, entitled: " Remember That One Time You Asked Me To Be Yours?"
What can we say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness and we call it love<3
-P&J
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