Most people know this catchy song by Mr. Blake Shelton, but with a lot of things, Music says a LOT when words simply can't. You can't have one without the other in this song. Just like Jacob and I, we are a pair. Can't have one without the other.
As many of you know, I will be returning home in about a month. And last night, I had a moment. So, again, as most of you know, I have been gone for quite a while. Recently, it's become quite a frustration for me when the obvious is stated when it comes to my relationship with The Loving Male. Yes, we have had a few thousand miles seperating us for a very long time. Yes, statistically, we should have split up about a month or two after I arrived in Washington, because most couples cannot handle the strain and weight of it all. And as someone so helpfully stated the other day "that we all know you are madly in love, but he is just someone you know over the phone." Well, see, here's the thing..
The few thousand miles deal, was my choice. To do something with my life.
The "splitting up", nope. I gave him a choice before I left, and he swore to me he wasnt going anywhere. The 21st of this month will make it two years for us.
Thank God for technology, we have been BLESSED BEYOND WORDS that we have had the ability to talk every day.
This moment I had, I had it after Jacob went to bed. I was re-reading through the texts from earlier and I have been going through my things to pack them up and I came across some things he had given to me, letters, little trinkets, and then the flash of my ring caught my eye. I glanced down at it and it hit me full on. I'm going to be able to see him every day. I won't have to miss him anymore. I won't have to cry myself to sleep some nights because it hurts so much. I won't have to say goodnight to him way before I go because of a time difference. I won't have to worry myself to death if he goes out at night if something were to happen, I have no way to get back in an hour should I have to. I get to hold his hand again, hug him whenever I want to, kiss him whenever I want, I get to finally, finally share my life with him every single day. He and I will learn more about each other, more than we realize right now. But I'm excited to learn. I get to finally have him in my arms again. No return flight weighing on my heart. I get to love him utterly and completely the way we have wanted for almost two years now. He and I had been together for almost five months when I left. That's five months of seeing each other almost every day, five months of hugs, kisses, adventures, and love constantly. So to go from that to zero except for the phone and Skype, that was a huge shock and adjustment for us. Look at us. Two years of strength. Two years of love. Two years of knowing exactly what we want even if the rest of it we had no idea. "If you love something, let it go. If it retuns to you, it was always meant to be yours in the first place and you Never EVER let it go." Well guess what, I'm coming home baby.<3 I have always been yours. I love you more than you will ever know.
What can I say? We are two people who fell into mutual weirdness, and we call it love.
